The increasing illogicality of people and institutions around me have made me start to break down what is around myself and try to explain it. I am a science major. I like science. Science isn't black and white, yes or no, and so on. But at the same time, it is, while still being very gray and slightly endless. Tangential theories are a staple in the sciences, where you can be on one train of thought but then on another different one but at the same time, still on the original idea and they all make sense and come together in a nice giant pot of SCIENCE.
When people in the science start showing signs of complete illogical activity, I begin to twitch helplessly in the fetal position in the corner of my mind.
The things that scientists sometimes do when they are not involved with a science project is baffling. Story time! First, backstory. The first week of a semester is called the "add/drop" period. This is the time for people to feel out their classes and to drop some or add others without missing anything too important or having a record of dropping the class on their transcript. Normally, most sane teachers don't require important homework items or iClicker assignments (when you answer questions in class with this fancy remote that records the fact that you were there) until after the add/drop period is over. Now for the story I promised. So my one class, a science class, on the first day, the teacher drops the hint on at least five occasions that the students should read chapter two for the next class period. I have not gotten the book yet because in my experience in the past, I get all gung ho about the books, get all of the required texts, and then maybe touch one. So I waited this semester. THE ONE SEMESTER I WAS SMART ABOUT BUYING BOOKS. So the first class was on Tuesday. On Wednesday, a friend texted me saying that she talked to the teacher and the teacher emphasized again that come class on Thursday, something will happen in which those who didn't read will wish that they had read. I, of course, did not have the book. The person I was texting had told the teacher that she wasn't in a position to buy the book until the following week, in which the teacher replied "Borrow from a friend." I didn't have the book, my other friend didn't have the book, and about half the class didn't have the book. My other friend ended up buying the last copy from the Textbook Annex that Wednesday, the teacher had loaned out all 4 copies of her book, which meant that there wasn't a copy in the library. What happens on Thursday in class you ask? WE HAD A QUIZ. Let me remind you that this is the third day of the semester. THE THIRD DAY. ADD/DROP IS NOT FOR ANOTHER WEEK-ISH. Once I finally get the book in the mail that next day, Friday, I look in the book and the quiz material was from one diagram on a page that was 80% into the chapter. ILLOGICAL. DOES NOT COMPUTE.
I got into a discussion with my mother about it, and we determined that if I had gone into engineering, (that's what I would have done if animals were never involved) it would have been just as bad but for different reasons. Engineers are very linear, very black and white, yes and no, etc. They are trained to work with things that have definite answers and definite paths and rules and outlines that work relatively across the board. However, the problem arises that sometimes they become a little too rigid and sometimes cannot deviate from the rigidness that is engineering.
So on one side, you have gray blobs that sometimes have no end. On the other side, you have black and white and nothing in between. I am not one of either. I think linearly, to an extent, but I understand and embrace the concept of gray, because there are always exceptions to the rules because that is how life does. I might not agree with life half of the time, but I understand that that is how it does. So, back on topic, I think linearly, but as I have just illustrated with my words, I thing very tangentially along side my linear thinking. I think linearly with a side of flowers.
I don't know where that falls but I know that I am stuck in an illogical warzone in which I want to be parts of both but neither at the same time. Since I cannot remedy the illogic of the world, I will have to settle for the insane outbursts from my inner logic demon that tries to devour anything illogical in it's path.





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